Monday, September 21, 2009

Since the first Aquinas class, I have wondered if this was going to be a class where I was going to have to bite my tongue; rework my phrasing; or just say nothing in response sometimes. Typically my first weeks of school are bland and by this time, I have already conjured up an idea how to skip some class or where in the class is the best place to take a nap. This is not high school though. Not even close. My mum has always tried to instill the idea that everyone is different and my idea was not always going to be everyoneelse's ideas. However, it was not until I moved to Fredericton where I kind of thought to myself "not everyone is not un-opinionated and boring anymore. Refreshing." I would not go off without saying that I would have also put myself in that category at times and I tried to be as open-minded as a could have been but during this class I finally thought, "wow... I have a lot to learn". This class quite possibly could be a little life changing if I am lucky and not in the way where all my thoughts are changed and I am this better and new found person. It is more in the way where I see the multiple ways of seeing things and explore ideas in new lights. Without getting gushy and gross, in past classes, I felt out of place because people never questioned me or said anything about my ideas and I felt as if I said too much but now, people are interested in what I am going to say and I HOPE, people are going to question me and when I am wrong, tell me I am wrong (but you better be able to prove it.) When thinking about what I learned in this class, it was not like do remember what I did in my homework but it was triggered by something new. When, I think it was in the second class, we had that discussion about raising children after I brought up my fearing of ruining my children with my beliefs and them just accepting it, everyone had something to say. Whether I agreed with what they had to say or not was far from the point. The point was they had an opinion, something they held dear in believing, like I did, and I wanted to hear what it was. There was a point when it all clicked when someone said something that made me mad. Not a little flustered but a little furious. What they said really made no sense to me and it really put me in this position where I creatively imagined jumping down their throat and telling them how ignorant they are. That lasted only two seconds because immediately after that I thought "they are entitled to feel that way. I wonder why they think that?" I had a lot of questions after that and that is what made feel like this class is the right choice for me. I have not learned anything text book style but I am slowly learning patience and that is more than anything I have ever taken away from any other class.